Blaugust Day 13

Blaugust Day 13

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This is not a dinosaur.

Apparently today isn’t Wednesday, it took me half the day to figure that out but now I know. Although I am still skeptical of tomorrow being Friday.

Anyway, I’m going to warn you now I have no idea what I’m going to talk about, so I apologize in advance for the lack of quality and complete randomness. When I don’t know what to draw I start scribbling on the page looking for shapes in all lines, eventually I find something, usually a face, and then try and develop whatever I found a bit further. Unfortunately, I can’t quite do that with words, so instead I will continue typing words until I hit that magical 10 sentences for Blaugust.

I suppose I could talk about a few things one thing that has been on my mind lately. If you’ve been to my About page (no, don’t go look at it now) or seen my August goals post you’ll know that the About page is still under construction, and if you’ve read this blog even a little you’ll know their hasn’t been a main focus. I almost started this blog during the Newbie Blogger Initiative in May, but when I went to write up the About page I froze and set the blog aside until the end of July.

I realized in May that 1) describing yourself isn’t easy and 2) I have an overarching idea I want to infuse into most of what I write on this blog, but I haven’t quite figured out how to do that. When I originally decided I wanted to blog I thought my main focus would be gaming, but then I started drawing more often and I thought it would be interesting to document that journey as I improve my drawing skills. I then realized there probably wasn’t a main focus or at least not a niche focus, and that’s okay. At this point nothing is off-limits for this blog- within reason of course. Writing, drawing, gaming, university, animals, life, dinosaurs, books- its all up for grabs when I go searching through my mind to find something to write.

And look at that 13 sentences. Phew! Whoever said writing was a struggle? (Well actually, I did in my first Blaugust Post)

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Rambling

Blaugust Day 9

It’s incredibly easy to get stuck in the grind of life and in the process we forget what we’re moving towards. Life often gets overwhelming at times and the anxiety that pops up can come from so many places: work, education, family, friends, goals, etc. We all work so hard at maintaining. Maintaining our home, grades, careers, vehicles, hygiene, diet, and the list goes on. All these things are important but many times not all are moving us forward. I highly recommend reading this post by Julie and Brett Bean that goes into this in a little more detail.

This past year of university especially spring term which ended in June was filled with anxiety, burnout, and malaise. I should have enjoyed Spring term more than I did. I was taking some great classes particularly paleobiology and vertebrate physiology. And I did enjoy these classes- the content was interesting, the professors were fantastic, and the classes directly pertained to my career goals. Yet, I found myself wanting to do other things than study. I would rather draw, watch drawing videos on YouTube, read about technology, and read blogs.

I repeatedly thought to myself if I love these subjects, if I plan to pursue a career where this content will be relevant- why can’t I focus? Why can’t I find the joy in studying and doing assignments? Had my interests and goals shifted and along the way I forgot to send myself a memo about the change.

I think instead my interests have expanded, and I need to learn how to better nurture each one without losing perspective.

The point that I’m trying to make is don’t forget what you’re moving toward. Don’t forget what you love. You may not have found your passion or your purpose yet, I know I haven’t, but chances are you know a general direction in which you want to move, and if so, then you and I are in the same boat.

At this point inspiration has ceased and my thoughts are all jumbled up, but I will be revisiting this topic and related ones in the future. So, I’ll leave you with a quote.

Your destiny is to fulfill those things upon which you focus most intently. So choose to keep your focus on that which is truly magnificent, beautiful, uplifting and joyful. Your life is always moving toward something.

Ralph Marston


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